itunes; diz tortion - southstylers

status - online
chatting - tom. trung
mood - tired

i literally forced myself out of bed this morning, got my fingers working and now i'm finally blogging! i was quite bored last night so i've changed my layout if you's haven't noticed. i don't want this site to be neglected yet again so i'll try my best to blog more frequently.

the past few days have been quite a blur. it's so hot outside yet i feel the urgent need to leave the premises of my house and do something. holidays seem to be blending in, i seem to have lost track of what day it is anymore.

last tuesday was xXxplosive and i'd say it was pretty itshay. i was actualy not meant to go but changed my mind in the last minute seeing as i was completely bored at home. i didn't even have an oufit prepared so as tina came over i frantically searched through my cupboards and put on anything! when i finally finished we both walked to kathy's , stayed there for a while doing little touch-ups here and there then all three cabbed it to rouges. by the time we arrived it was nine, there were actually still people standing outside doing nothing? luckily i got a free ticket so i saved 20 bucks! got in and saw familiar faces but not much people were there as i thought they'd be. went fown to rnb and fuking oath it was so hot and stinky. everytime someone walked past they would wipe sweat on me...ewwww
didn't really dance at all that night cause i was a tad bit tired but had an enjoyable time observing other's dance moves. ROFL
when it was over kathy, lina tina and i got a lift home from khang and that was my night!

two more days till new years eve and i'm still not certain of what i'm doing. i guess it'll just be the same old...watch the fireworks and reminisce about the good and bad times of the past year. speaking of it, i still need to fulfill some of my new years resolutions. .. *sighs*

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sitiing home alone has left me reminiscing about things i have been preventing myself from thinking. my mind constantly wanders off and no matter how hard i try, i think about all the things i don't want to think about
i start to wander about him...someone who i definetly do not wish to think about.

i don't know what to feel anymore, im mixed with so much confused emotions. everyday im beginning to thrive on waiting for a new tomorrow. no i'm not depressed nor am i been pessismistic. my life just seems so dull without you by my side...

did you really mean what you said last night or were you plainly just playing around with my feelings? if you are..it's got to stop, i ain't your toy. if yout arn't...

baby give me a sign