itunes; make heaven wait - guy sebastian

status - away
chatting - khang.minh.john
mood - misses susan!

2005 is drawing to an end and what can i say, i don't believe i will be thinking of this year as one of my greatest but maybe one of the most eventful and hardest. the year will sure be remembered for the many obstacles i've ever experienced, not only from exam pressures, friendship breakups and fights, but also for the loss of a young girl.

it just seemed like yesterday when we last celebrated nye and i remember the enthusiasm and excitement upon me of turning the big 16, beginnning a new school as a tenth grader, formal and looking forward to pursuing the many goals and new experiences laying ahead. as i reflect upon the last 12 months, i have had the priviledge to develop many new friendships, grown closer with older friends and although we may have been involved in many certain issues throughout the year, we together have managed to overcome it and become a stronger pack. inspite of all the different ups and downs, highs and lows, i thank-you everyone [you know who you are] for teaching and helping me recognise the true importance and value of friendship, family, self-belief and life.

irbs + vks; thanking each and everyone of you indivdually would be useless and endless because you have all touched my heart in the same way. you's mean the whole world to me and looking back at all the funny, silly, stupid and adventurous things we've done makes me laugh and cry .I LOVE YOU'S TO DEATH! *gives mooshy hug*

family; i have to thank my family for all their support. yes i know i may not have been an easy child to raise up and shamefully admit i use to give my parents hardship, but now i have learnt to respect them because in the end, all they want is the best for me and i wish to return them a favor and make them proud. they have been with me through every step and i want them to together watch me walk down the aisle, become a successful woman and live a good life.

highlights; to tell you the truth, there's too many to remember and if i were to go into detail, i would be sitting here till the morning. but from the many random drink-ups to the birthday parties, pizza nights, hang-outs, clubbing, bumming, i cannot emphasis the fun i have had and i assure they will forever be cherished memories! xD

love; i was pondering on whether to include this in my entry, but i have to say that i haven't met or been seeing anyone seriously for the past year. maybe it's because i want to wait for that special someone..but honestly, there has only been one person i've truly loved. okay i don't know about love, i'm too young to even know waht love is but then he will always remain in my heart...

lessons; i have not only learnt how to do numerous new equations and essays, but i've sure discovered the true definition of what it means to be a friend and the significance of trust and support. there have truly been many embarrassing moments which i wish to just forget but i woudn't take it back otherwise i would never have learnt from my mistakes. this year i know has been hard for the many friends and families of Vii, whom tragically lost her life but i know that she is up in heaven looking upon us. one of the most important lessons i learnt is to cherish life and appreciate it.

2006 new years resolution

- spend more time with family

- enjoy life more

- succeed in school

- cut back on swearing

- minimise partying

- get fit!

- make more friends, not enemies

itunes; diz tortion - southstylers

status - online
chatting - tom. trung
mood - tired

i literally forced myself out of bed this morning, got my fingers working and now i'm finally blogging! i was quite bored last night so i've changed my layout if you's haven't noticed. i don't want this site to be neglected yet again so i'll try my best to blog more frequently.

the past few days have been quite a blur. it's so hot outside yet i feel the urgent need to leave the premises of my house and do something. holidays seem to be blending in, i seem to have lost track of what day it is anymore.

last tuesday was xXxplosive and i'd say it was pretty itshay. i was actualy not meant to go but changed my mind in the last minute seeing as i was completely bored at home. i didn't even have an oufit prepared so as tina came over i frantically searched through my cupboards and put on anything! when i finally finished we both walked to kathy's , stayed there for a while doing little touch-ups here and there then all three cabbed it to rouges. by the time we arrived it was nine, there were actually still people standing outside doing nothing? luckily i got a free ticket so i saved 20 bucks! got in and saw familiar faces but not much people were there as i thought they'd be. went fown to rnb and fuking oath it was so hot and stinky. everytime someone walked past they would wipe sweat on me...ewwww
didn't really dance at all that night cause i was a tad bit tired but had an enjoyable time observing other's dance moves. ROFL
when it was over kathy, lina tina and i got a lift home from khang and that was my night!

two more days till new years eve and i'm still not certain of what i'm doing. i guess it'll just be the same old...watch the fireworks and reminisce about the good and bad times of the past year. speaking of it, i still need to fulfill some of my new years resolutions. .. *sighs*

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sitiing home alone has left me reminiscing about things i have been preventing myself from thinking. my mind constantly wanders off and no matter how hard i try, i think about all the things i don't want to think about
i start to wander about him...someone who i definetly do not wish to think about.

i don't know what to feel anymore, im mixed with so much confused emotions. everyday im beginning to thrive on waiting for a new tomorrow. no i'm not depressed nor am i been pessismistic. my life just seems so dull without you by my side...

did you really mean what you said last night or were you plainly just playing around with my feelings? if you are..it's got to stop, i ain't your toy. if yout arn't...

baby give me a sign

itunes; table dance - bobby valentino

status - online
chatting- michelle.susan.danie
mood - craving for junkfood..

ho ho ho!!

merry christmas everyone!

&

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY DANIE!!

what a party you had last night, many people got pretty fuked up including myself..but it was all good fun!

yesterday started off with some shopping at bankstown centro with my beloved susan. went there to collect some cash from the bank but ended up buying some jewellery and beads! we shopped till 3ish then got a lift from susans mum back to my place and bussed it to city for danies party.

we got there and saw a whole bunch gathered outside galaxy...saw jamie! like fully tabouli i hadn't seen that guy in yonks! we all then made our way to phoenix, got in and it took quite a while for the alchi to arrive.

as every bottle slowly got consumed, people started to get drunk and tipsy...others were bloody stoned to the maxibon!

i hadn't drank in the past 6 months so i guess i was pretty much a shiet drinker...LOL

unfortualty we couldn't extend the time so everyone gathered at darling harbour and just sat there...

in the end, got a lift home from david and i was left locked outside my house in the cold for nearly half hour! luckily my mum called me to ask where i was...-_-"

i didn't have much of a good sleep either because i felt sick all night. i wanted to vomit yet my body refused to let the alcohol out of my system! woke up this morning with the most pleasent hangover and all i did was eat and sleep. felt really lazy too, i couldnt even be fucked gettin off the toilet seat for nearly 10 minutes! LOL

neways tomorro afternoon susan is departing to go switzerland! going to miss you soooo much! two months without you's gonna KILL ME! make sure you stay safe and take good care of yourself. remember, i want a souvenier...and i dont mean a lonsdale sticker! LMAO

neways 5 more minutes till christmas...

i want you to come down my chimney ! *cries*

itunes; jack & jill - avant

status - online
chatting - susan.lianna.olly
mood - no words could ever describe

what's wrong with me? i thought i was over him, i made myself eradicate all those fond memories of our past believing i could move on. my brain tells me that i should just forget, there's plenty of guys out there, yet my heart keeps running back...running back to him.

WHY must i still feel this way?

the sight of you with another girl shattered me to pieces. but i know...i know i must hold my head up high because i don't care! I DON'T FUKING CARE ANYMORE!!
to think that i even thought of getting back...gosh im so gullible and naive.

Wish I could forget your name, your face, your smile, your sweet embrace

You're making it hard for me, and days seem long the nights seem cold

Wish I could relive it, the times you make me cry

It's killing me, I don't wanna miss u no more...

itunes; never fall asleep - evil activities

status - online
chatting - susan.khang.tony.olly
mood - hot!!

first of all,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY PETER U OLD FAG!!

(for yesterday)

heard you had quite an oddball of a party, hope you enjoyed it. well it seemed like it anyway when you came home all drunk and lost...LOL!

the thought of even stepping outside my house was just too unbearable. as i opened my window this morning, i felt a huge heat wave rip over my body. in the end, i spent the whole day confided in my room watchin vietnamese series [phim tap]. omg0sh that shit is so damn addictive, i was practically glued to my screen from 3-9pm. it's called, 'chiec giay thuy tinh' and depicts the lives of two orphaned young sisters who get separated and later in life try to find eachother. it's so sad yet they overcome so many hardships and of course find in love on the way...it's so sweet! i've watched 6 hours of it and only just up to the third chapter. ahh i got the rest of the holidays to finish the rest, 17 more chapters!

neways yesterday susan came over and we both decided to go on a long-ass shopping spree. we first trained it to burwood and made our way to westfield. bought this really really adorable jewellery and earring stand for $20, now all i really need is a necklace stand! after susan got her eyebrows done, we trained it to town hall and did more desired shopping at pitt st. susan then desperately needed to purchase a new camera for her holiday so we bussed it to the rocks and bought one at the duty free galleria. omg, that store made us look and feel like such povos! we both rampaged around drooling over all the lui vuitton, guess, chanel, blvgari range! i immediately fell in love with these sunnies but my heart sunk when i flipped to look at the price...$779! *cries*

after an hour of WINDOW shopping, we then bussed it back to george st to eat dinner once again at macas! gosh..i never get sick of those nuggets. took some capitals then bummed at liannas till late with the girls playing cards and been luvos. LOL

hmm Xxplosive is cancelled this friday prior to some police business jibberish. or so they claim, looks like it's going ot be hosted at my favourite rouges club. i was actually quite in the mood for some dancing but boohoo, i have to wait another week. also susan won't be able to make it either so that sucks hardcore! i'm gonna miss her, 2 months without susion? how will i ever cope! what a lucky fag, gets to go to switzerland, london then vietnam! i haven't even stepped outside australia's border..well besides when i was 6 months but that dosn't count! >.<

well on the brighter side, danie's birthday's coming up and she's having it at K? i think..but whatever the plans are, im sure it will be fo shizzle fun!

neways, better return to my bed and continue watching the series!

these are our sexy capitals we took last night..

itunes; someday oneday - christina millian

status - away
chatting - currently no-one
mood - bored

howdy doo my sexy readers!

apologies out yet again for my long-ass absence, its been four consecutive days since i last blogged...

well obviously because each and everyone of you are reading this right now , you're proberly all curious and anxious to either hear what i've been up to or what i have to brag on about RIGHT? how sweet indeed!

friday night

what can i say? so much memories to further cherish...what a bloody hilarious night!

it was trung's last minute decision to gather everyone up and have a mini drink-up at beaman park. it had been quite a while since we've all last seen eachother so it was like a little reunion party...awwww the old days!

highlights:

- the prankcalls! ROFL

if you were one of the victims of our evil...oh so evil calls! SUCK SHIT! AHAHAHAHA..poor old danie got fooled hardcore!

the phonecall somwhat went like this:

tom : is this danie? hi this is larry's show calling from 77.9FM radio, we have called you to say that one of your friends have dobbed you in and you have just won a ipod nano! so..how do you feel?

danie: OMG!! i feel......i feel GREAT!

tom: but first of all you have to answer one question, if you answer this correctly you win yourself a ipod nano.....the question is, what is the name of santa's favourite red-nosed reindeer?

danie: RULDOPH!

tom: that is CORRECT! you have just won yourself a ipod nano! ...give me a OH YERR!

over-excited danie: OH YER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by this time we were all literally on the floor laughing. tom accidently hangs up from laughter.. you would have thought she'd realised it was a fraud but oh no were we wrong..!

*tom calls back again*

tom: sorry for that, we experienced technical difficuties..

danie: oh that's okay..

tom: well we have another contestant on the line, chrissie, you's will both compete for the ipod..all you have to do is sing a christmas carol and be judged by shannon noll. whoever sings the best will win the ipod nano..shannon noll are you there?

tom imitatates shannon noll : yer mate!

danie sings hardout: RUDOPH THE RED NOSE REINDEER! HAD A VERY SHINY NOSE...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

your such a blonde! ahh that was an all time classic man!

- our fire extinguisher fight

the boys stole one and everyone started running around the park attacking eachother! LMAO. in the end we were covered in some white dust-like foamy gooey sticky eeky weeky substance...but it was so goddamn fun!

- tom stealing the flag from the golfcourse to shove it up....

as he said, you can only get a 'hole in one' . LOL

- vsin who can climb up the flagpole the highest...

well..i don't think there were any winners but it was a tight contest!

- drinks that managed to unsuccessfully get anyone drunk.

actually it did get a certain people tipsy...everyone drank except me and kathy. LOL

well im sure there's plenty more highlights but that'll for now...xD

yesterday night susan came over and we both bussed it to city to eat dinner..at macas! LOL

met up with rabbit and others, played a few games at pc and left home early...oh yer! me and susan saw the biggest trung look-alike! AHAHAAH..and this dude was like bloody 30!

and today? i had work work work..it was quite busy but who cares, i got dosh for next week! and you know what that means? shopping time! *smirks*

hmm i've just realised how many 'LMAO's, 'ROLF's and 'LOL's i'ved used in this entry...

actually do you find yourself sayin 'LOL' in msn conversations too often that it's actually lost it's meaning? coz i do! LOL

itunes; enjoy - re-con

status - away
chatting - minh.tony
mood - hungry..

prophecy ; 18th February 2006
as described in huongy + tien's blog..
just looking at the list of dj's makes me wanna drool. what a darn sexy line-up, i cannot emphasise the excitement bubbling up inside of me!

i attended a caution interview today and i can say it was truly a waste of time! my poor father had to pay 25 bucks just to park the car for a 15 minute interview! stupid sergeant was been a total jerk too. as i entered the room, i was innocently searching through my bag to switch off my phone when he fully tabouli told me off and started giving me a lecture that i should stop giggling and take this issue more serious?

like for your information i was not even 'giggling', i was actaully SMILING! gosh i can't help but be a happy child, shish..!

in the end it was all settled. damn the rocks have madass shops! when i'm rich and wealthy, i'm so going there for a shopping spree, actually who wants to go window shoppin? xD

neways is anyone out there still experiencing problems with their ipods? my shuffle is out of batteries and won't charge. no matter how many times i've shoved it in the usb, it refuses to do so..*cries*

itunes; cocaine MF (duro'z oldschool remake) - dj duro

status - online
chatting - trung.ken.susan
mood - bored

i sincerely apologise for my lack of updating this blog...i have seriously lost motivation!
the past few days have been very unproductive...everything seems to be in such a routine.

wake up.
eat.
watch tv.
net.
sleep.
sleep some more.

i repeat i need MOTIVATION!

the other day as i arrived at work, i found my manager enthusiastically celebrating. i was at first startled but as i approached him, he exclaimed "it's about time we fought back! bring back the biff!"

he sure is a proud aussie -_-"

neways what in the hells up with the race riots? it may seem funny now but sooner or later it will get out control. i wonder if the asians are getting involved..well if they do, poor old ken won't be able to leave his house. he'll proberly get decked the minute he steps outside. LOL

movin on, new years is approaching and i don't really have any particular plans. they say whomever you celebrate nye with are the ones you'll cherish the rest of the year with ..well in that case i guess i'll just spend it with the sexy gals..

hmm i want a boyfriend..wait! i NEED a boyfriend!

gosh thinking about it, i miss liking someone. i miss been liked.

i miss the phonecalls. i miss the gifts. i miss the affection. i miss the dramas. but i guess what i miss the most is knowing that a certain someone out there is always thinking about you.

to all you couples out there, im in envy! LOL

neways i finaly got hold of bonkers 15. like fo shizzle about time! my big thanks to minh who shoved it all in the shuffle..xD

don't know what i'm up to tomorrow, might come down bankstown and visit susan since i didn't today, although i got a caution meeting in the evening. GREAT -_-"

oh yer, btw...

HAPPY ONE MONTH KIMI + TRUNG !!

itunes; power & glory - GEOS

status - online
chatting - currently nowun
mood - happy

guess what? i have officially...

GRADUATED!!

*cheers* we have reached the checkpoint of our school career ..i can't believe it was just four years ago when i first started highschool..

i clearly still rememeber the first day...fo shizzle i'm still the same height! >.<

anyways danie's over ..she said she likes licking bumholes ..xD

graduation assembly was quite boring...got the chance to say goodbye to the fellas..

received our school certificates and reports..

let's just say..

i could have done better!

english literacy - 75 marks

mathematics - 76 marks

science - 76 marks

australian history - 71 marks

australian geography - 73 marks

i got band fours's for all subjects..*cries*..i wanted at least a five!

as for my grades...some odd reason i got B for all subjects..

so i got graded 'B' with bands of '4'...-_-"

AHAHAHAHA..overall i had 16 explained absences and 27 unexplained..

itunes; run it - chris brown feat.juelz santana

status - online
chatting - danie
mood - ..

i feel like crap.
i've somehow caught a nasty cold. i can't breathe properly. this heat is killing me . centrelinks been a tightass motherfucker. im craving for a gelatissimo ferreo roche. oh dear me..

today danie came over and we both just bummed around the house, eating and watching tv. i have to say sex and the city is my all time favourite series..it's so interesting to watch the many perspectives perceived about men from four different women who share such a strong friendship..

when i'm older, i hope i'll just be like them!

even though i'm young and i guess still 'stupid', as i watch the show, it somewhat relates to many issues i and many others currently face...for instance..

watching today's episode, a very contradicting issue arose...

is it really possible to remain good friends with your ex?

yes that's right, im opening up the 'ex-factor' file..

many people everyday experience hasty break-ups, many people are left heart-broken and shattered to pieces, many people leave scarred..
some in the other hand feel angry, many get hurt and are left with a deep hatred towards him..
it's these reasons that make it just so difficult to sustain a friendship after a relationship..

in mathematics we learn that the 'x' is unknown where

a + b = x

but really, the unknown is :

can ab / 2 = a friendship ?

hmmm..

i can't say that i have a answer for seeing as i have not really been in many serious relationships..but it's just something i thought was quite....interesting. xD

neways moving along...i am in envy those out there who are listening to bonkers 15! >.<

useless dial-up..cant download sugerplums so i'm going to get trung to burn me the lot..

until then, i guess i'll just have to wait and sook until i get it *criess*

itunes; sound of the bass (deepack remix) - dj act

status - online
chatting - danie
mood - roasted!!

there is this overwhelming heat circulating my room..

i have no fan.
i can't feel my air-con.
NOTHING!!

this heat is unbearable! *takes out a water gun and shoots at the sun*

thankfully i stayed at home today, i'm so greatful of my 'wise' decision..imagine attending school in this weather! i would literally roast to death -_-"
neways the recent decision of danie's departure from school has left me depressed and speechless..
who's going to be my study partner? my class buddy? my jigging partner?
i'm going to miss you so much, school for me will definetly feel different without you...i have no-one to whinge about my daily problems, i have no one to laugh at my oh-so-not funny jokes...i can't believe i won't be graduating yr 12 with you! *cries a pacific ocean*..
but nevertheless, make sure you study hard and do well in tafe..OR else i will chop your ballsacks off and shove it up your asshole so when you shit, you shit all over your balls..LOL
tomorrow i'm going to actually go school and sign out..i've decided that tempe isn't the right school for me to continue yr 11 and 12 studies...so it looks like i'm enrolling at another school yet agains..*sighs*
i don't even know what school either and it's been frustrating the crap out of me..i want to do certain subjects yet many of the schools i'm interested in don't offer certain electives..*pulls out hair!*..wish me goodluck!
well on friday is our yr 10's graduation..
my reflection of this year?
i'm a little disappointed in myself..i don't really know what to expect when i get my sc results back, my lack of studying and not pushing myself to my limits has left me with a shit report..i once was an 'A' student but looking at me now..
everything seems to be downhill...my attendance is totally dreadful, my exam results have slowly started declining...
next year i need to get a clean grip of myself and start getting my act up..i only have another two years and before you know it, i'll be out there on my own..

' to study hard and do well in school'..

that's going to be ONE of my new year's resolution..

moving on..bonkers 15 is out..maybe i will go buy it but im currently REALLY broke so i might just burn it off someone..*giggles*

itunes; drop that heater - omarion

status - away
chatting - no-one
mood - tired but satisfied

FORMAL FORMAL FORMAL!!

'White Castle'

921 Canturbury Rd Lakemba

6pm-12pm

oh my oh my! it was the big day...like totally freak me out..i had a bloody awesome night! xD

hmmm let me try and recap yesterday..bare with me as i'm still feeling abit exhausted..

saturday - surpisingly woke up at around eightish but laid in bed feeling all lazy listening to my sexy shuffle..finally forced myself to get up at tenish to take shower and WALKED all the way to the hairdresser. when i say WALKED i mean i fucking WALKED! arghhzzz i despise walking so much, by the time i arrived at the shop i was drenched in sweat..*cries*

dyed and had highlights done to my hair..i then asked them to do this particular hairstyle that i was after but instead it looked like some UGLY fringe majingy..I WAS NOT IMPRESSED! ..it looked like i'd jst came back from the 1970's or some shiet..lyk oh my sugerplums!! asked them to fix it but it really made no difference sho i hurriedly left and passed tony's house to grab our tickets, caught a taxi home and got my aunty to fix my hair..LOL

got home earlier then i'd expected so i watched half of 'heartbreakers' while contemplating on what colour dress i was going to wear...in the end i chose black seeing as my turquoise dress didn't really meet my desires...

quickly hopped into the shower and omg i was STRUGGLING to wash myself! AHAHAHA..i couldn't find one single shower cap in the house...it was so freaking difficult restraining my hair from touching the water..-_-"

hmm got dressed, accessorised then my aunty did free manicure, pedicure and make-up..oompa loompa she took her time and we finished at six ..o.0

danie finally came over and she wassent even in her dress! AHAHAHA you mole! we all then frantically ran around the house doing little touch ups here and there..by the time we were ready it was 7.30..ROFL

called khang to tell him we were set to go but he was still all the way at matt's house so we had to wait for another half hr! holy moly...so he and matt picked us up and had little difficulty finding the venue. it was held at 'white castle' so obviously we were looking our for a white building..so we drove and drove...and drove till we finally found our destination...

the building wassent even white! WHY DO THEY CALL IT A WHITE CASTLE WHEN ITS BLOODY MADE OUT OF BRICKS?!? -_-"

got in at 8:30 [ 2 nd half hrs late ] and everyone looked SO GORGEOUS! so many sexy ladies and fellas..i felt so grown up! there were actually people wearing princess crowns and masks..some even brought miny swords! unfortunately because we were a tad bit late we missed out on the awards and entrees. awww tom won an award for cutest smile whilst jacob won biggest flirt..ROFL

food was radically gross, the only thing i ate off the plate were the carrots and sweet potato..xD..took a gazillion photos and got the opportunity to catch up with so many of my old beloved friends..it was so good to see you's all again! oh the view was...um...GREAT! tops of shops and little minature buildings from the city but it was still OK! music was bloody hecticalectic, us girls -mezza, danie, jasmine had a blast dancing the night away! by the end of the night my feet were like dead...o.0

everyone stayed till the end and we headed off to jacob's house for afterparty. danie didn't come with me seeing as she got picked up by john to go cruising..LOL

arrived at jacob's and the place was PACKED with so much people! poor guy..betcha his house is gonna be smashed up ..o.0..

khang nd matt left for a while to pick up yun daniel and others so me nd jasmine walked around the house doing ABSOULTY NOTHING..we were bored marshmallows..-_-"

watched people smoke the hubbly bubbly thing while others were already either peaking off their nuts or drunk..-_-"

the party was pretty crap..there was so many randoms..everywhere i looked there were people making out or giving eachother lap dances, so me and jasmine left the room and sat on our own little table...we were so disgusted ...o.0

matt came back..sat around half falling alseep and trying to do countless things with these walnuts we found...rolling them around the room so people could stack on them..ROFL..didn't work though ...*hmpf!*

so khang finally came back..got to take a nap in his car then drove me home at around 3ish..

well there goes our year 10 formal! cannot wait till year 12 comes! i'm already feeling anticipated!

hmm overall the night was absolutly fabulous even though the afterparty was mighty itshay, it was great to see everyone all dressed up. xD oh yer..

• my big fat THANKS to khang for been my formal date..oh yer and my taxi..AHAHAHA..nah jokes!

hmm and OH YER!

• i'm so going to kick your ass mezza when i see yooh again! i have a huge bruise on my ass from that whippin yooh gave me of that sword! ROFL

`x FORMAL pics

itunes; how to deal - frankie J

i attended mass last night at st felix to pay respect for Vii..
Vii when i saw you lying there, unmobilised..i could'nt hold in my tears for you..
it was just too much..
Vii when i heard your favourite song ' how to deal' play through the church..i broke down..
it was just too unbearable..
Vii when they took you away..i couldn't tell myself to say goodbye..
i just couldn't..not yet..
today me and the girls are going to look for the place and visit you..