itunes; differences - ginuwine

status - offline
chatting - no-wun
mood - hungry

HAPPY CHINESE/VIETNAMESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

its been a not so unusual week with hideous weather and a little agony to top it off. i've been bloghopping heaps cause it feels like everyone has something to write but me, here i am talking about reading other people's blogs. how splendid xD

before i start my grand rantings, i figured i should give you lonely ones out there a little update into the life of janie. BAHAHA..

last saturday
michelle chucked a little get together party at her house. usual people there [excluding sly people rocking up then escaping with our midori bottle *clenches fist*] , plenty got tipsy and whacked. i of course was 180 degrees straight. some controversies occurred but howdy doo, it's all over...err blame it on the alcohol i suppose! LOL

monday
had work then afterwards joanna and me bummed around market city cause she was waiting for a certain someone. let's just say we sure live in a small world! BAHAHAHA. ended up going to some meriton apartment then discovering it was actually somebody's birthday. felt bad cause we were kinda blow-ins, people drank drank drank and i found the night quite enjoyable, hence witnessing some funny competition right girls and boys? ROFL

wow, my brains kinda blank now, let me revitalise for a second...

30 seconds later..

i can't seem to remember other events but it most likely consumed of bitchfestivities, eating, sleeping, netting, working, reading. oh yes READING! i finally got hold of the 'da vinci code' and agree with most critics, it truly is one of the most spell-bounding books i've ever read! if you haven't had the opporunity to read it, i demand you immediately take your ass to a bookstore and grab it. i was totally flabberghasted and never knew that artwork could be interpretated in such a fascinating way.

oh yes...my brains back in the zone, my memories coming back

wednesday
me and the girls went on a massive shopping spree around the city. i beliieve shopping should become a sport, i had the biggest work-out walking back and forth from george st to pitt st then trekking it to market city then returning again to QVB. came home with new yellow 3/4 pants, black 3/4 pants, dress, bronze tie-up heels and other sizzling stuff but i can't seem to remember. LOL

thursday
aussie aussie aussie! unfortunalty i was forced to wake up in the early morning of 6.30 to bus my ass to work. arrived in the city and saw interesting people running around with australian flags wrapped around them. some dude was walking around offering free meatpies but for some odd reason when i walked past he stopped. hmmm i wonder if it's due to the fact that i'm ASIAN. well i'm an aussie OK, a darn proud one!! ok janie take it easy you vietnamezy..ahh esh tom ROFL. after working my ass off i bussed my way home, got dressed then bussed it with kathy and viet. got to rouges, got in and bloody oath rnb as usual stuck like piss! overall the night was so goddam boring, i found myself walking up and down the stairs countless times, sitting down trying to contain myself from yawning. night was a failure seeing as i didn't get to reel in any good bait. LOL

saturday
spent the day helping my parents out at their shop then had a warm visit from my muchkin lianna! we both trekked it to officeworks and was disappointed beacuse practically the whole store was goo00oone! there were no 128 page books left or any decent RED pens. like wtfness, what do you expect late shopping fuks like us to do now...write in 96 page books and draw black and blue margins? very very disappointed in you mr and mrs whomever owns petersham officeworks. then olly called us and demanded we visit him at ashfield so he could show off his 'mohawk' so we taxied it and just bummed around. got home and spent some quality time with family and relatives, fortunaly i received little red pockets. i guess im too old now =[

two more days till school officially resumes. PANIC ATTACK! i am so not prepared for the oncoming next months of assessments, exams, teachers. honestly this year i'm going to start fresh..no more iggjaying, no more sleeping in or stayin up late netting. partying is going to be kept at a minimum meaning less partying and instead focusing on studying! but yer sad to say, i actually believe i'd rather much particiapte in the world of schooling amongst the clutter of bookshelves, desks and chairs. i guess it'll help me forget about things..

to be quite honest theres a certain wave of drama in my life. nothin surprising i suppose, boys are trouble and its already spoken enough cause plenty know that. don't you hate it when nothing ever feels right, when there's one certain aspect of life issent pefect yet makes you belive eevrything else around you is falling apart as well. the heart is throbbing...

at first i'm angry. angry that you don't want a change. after i'm angry, i'm going to be understanding. i'm going to realise that all bad things and goods things come to and end. once i've understood, im going to be thankful. thanking whomever for showing me the true light through that dark tunnel. when all the thanking is done, i'm going to reflect. reminisce on the good times and laugh off the bad ones. then with one last sigh, i will finally let go.

sounds like a brilliantly devised plan ey?

you were once my cheap act of denial. you were my rock thought, the one that made me feel great when my day went down. when you wern't around, i didn't mourn about your leave, but awaited excitedly for your return. you didn't know...

you still don't. and never will .

itunes; bang bang - dj rob

status - away
chatting - currently no-one
mood - uh huh ^^

here i am again, 8 days since my last confession
it's time for a change, i'll give readers a little sense of impression
rememeber i ain't tryna be some emo
i just like to express my thoughts so here it goes..

why issert that i cant hide this hurt inside
wishing i could just brush these broken feelings aside
i ain't gonna breakdown, i ain't gonna cry
cause it's time my heart agree, its time for a final goodbye
i ask myself, why after all we've been through
do i still have an aching urge to cling to
behind my back people tell me i'm stupid, i know
you'd think i'd moved on a long time ago
but hey hey, stop! who said i still wanted him
i guess there's certain unknown things that will make your light dim
honestly i had hope that you'd had changed
now me and melynda gonna laugh it off cause you were only my 'practice range'
out of the blue, she comes and aboards my heart's main deck
but guess what? i thank her cause she's the one who gave me a reality check
ive been blinded, swimming around are plenty of decents in the sea
now its fishing time baby, im finally setting myself free

itunes; roll with me - boys II men

status - online
chatting - tony.trung.olly
mood - ??

what happens when your bored on a thursday night with nothing but a computer and notepad?
i just spent an exhilirating 2 hours summing up rhymes to battle it up against trung and olly. freestyling is in my dna boys! ROFLMAO. my work of art [rap] can be found at the poofs site, so check it out but please, be nice! remember, i'm just a beginner..

today was not surprisingly yet another boring day, as usual arriving to work with a 'i'm-just-not-happy-enough-to-work' mood. quite frankly, that excuse wasn't satisfactory enough to let me off so i was left with a 5-hour shift. the girls came to pick me up and i had a little feud with my sister. for those people who have siblings, think back to the last ime you had a quarrel with them? this moment may have been a few years back, or just a few minutes ago but you may all agree that these arguments never cease or get resolved unless a 'referee' [ such as a friend, mother, father etc..] steps into the picture.

reminscing back, me and my sister use to have plenty of fights, absolute dumb ones actually! i remember this one occasion when my sister demanded i play dolls or something with her but i refused because playschool was on. the argument was so heated up that my arrogant sister decided that it would be funny to throw a doorknob at my face from 10 metres away, close the door and leave me to bleed to death. to make things worse, my mum couldn't even open the door..why? because the doorknob was missing! LOL . but luckily my uncle came to the rescue and opened it with a credit card and saved me! okay she was only three years old but issent that just plain cruelty!

neways moving on, we all went to momma's after but i wasn't hungry so decided to bus it home early with lianna. yesterday in the other hand was rather spent more productively....sleeping! watched chicken little and played poker online with indo tom and minh. it was abit confusing at first but i'm getting the hang of it and damn issert addictive! the boys were all hungry, so we then decided to have dinner at 'hung cheung' . arrived at around 9ish, then each ordered a scrumptious dish, excluding trung who was been a major tightass and only ordered fried ice-cream.ROFL. after we finished, indo tom, minh and myself trekked it back to tony's house and bummed for a while until esh tom and trung called us back out to the new pc at marrickville and dota'ed! got tad bit bored so i dropped by lianna's house and taxi'ed it home.

two nights ago my cousin came over and offered me some fortune cookies. coincidence, i don't know but my cookies both somewhat relate to eachother :

'you never lose by loving, you only lose by holding back'

'don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened'

for some reason, i feel like i'm forever doomed in a relationship. i'm constantly waiting for another guy to come around and let me down, and when this happens, i prove myself right of this theory. but of course, i'm still on the lookout to prove myself wrong!!

itunes; round and round (the pitcher remix) - dalucia

status - away
chatting - trung.certain someone
mood - uncertainty

you know what pisses me off? people who 'claim' they are depressed. if you're upset, its understandable, my heart goes out to you. but really, it's really unnecessary to go around telling everyone you're 'depressed' like it's something to be be proud of. people who are depressed don't go announcing it out to the world wanting to be noticed then reject the people offering to help. those people don't have a depression problem, they have an attention problem.

i'm sorry if i sound so harsh but depression isn't some sort of fashion statement!!

everyone knows that everything in life happens for a reason. there is no right. there is no wrong. just a whole bunch of situations that lead to either good things or bad things. to SOME people, life to them means making it through one crappy day after the next, each day less perfect than the one before. for others, life's just a plain joke. no future to live for, only from a past which they run from.

well you know what? WAKE UP!! i've repeatively comforted you, tried to give you my best advice yet it seems like your not listening to a thing im saying. just give it time, i'm telling you...
and to thing it's all because 'he' isn't into you? why do you keep saying your worthless, for godsakes stop telling yourself that because for the 10th gazillion time, YOU ARE NOT! i hate seeing girls down on their dumps because of a boy. they start thinking their not good enough, when reality is, 'he doesn't know what his missing out on'. it kills me to see people in this state, i mean c'mon! you don't need him, this is not LOVE. this is called been dependent on another person. remember; don't search for love, let it come to you...

i know i'm not close to you anymore, and highly doubt you'll come across this entry, but please! get a hold of yourself because your truly making a big deal out of something that will eventually work out. as i said, you've just gotta give it time!

LIFE

four letters. one word. single concept translated into a billion meanings.

either love it. hate it. or live it.

your choice.

itunes; 99.nine - pavo & zany

status - online
chatting - michelle.tina.quoc
mood - lazy

being the lazy cow that i am, with no motivation what-so-ever, i spent yesterday going through my usual boring cycle mainly consisting of :

eating, netting, watching movies, repeat.

i should get a trophy for being so good at wasting time, how i manage to get nothing productive done at all is amazing. i rekon lazyness is going to come and conquer me, maybe one day i'm just gonna wake up and be like "nah..can't be bothered doing anything no more, i'll just die". that's how extreme my laziness is getting! LOL

but it wasn't all that bad, after church michelle called me over to tina's and we sat in her room talking and laughing for hours at absolutely ridiculous things. spent the whole night making candy and now half my beads are gone so i need to purchase more now, if not immediately!

friday night was spent with trung, indo tom and lianna at city eating at momma's kitchen. we all met up at 9.30ish, i ordered steak but damn did my dish look so plain and boring! tom's ribs looked so enticing yet it was all skin and bones? AHAHAHA. trung, "the man", attempted to twirl melted cheese around his fork but accidently ended up flicking it onto me. ROFLMAO. had quite a fulfilling dinner, me and trung are so coming back to eat those ribs! *licks lips*

today was spent wisely working my hard ass off. i didn't mind at all and was actually gee'd up, why? because i desperatly need dosh to purchase myself a prophecy ticket. since viet is currently so so povo, the generous person i am agreed to buy his as well so hopefully i can cough up 120$ next week. not to mention i need to save up for another trip to the shops, i don't ever want another day where i have to say, " i can't go out today cause i have nothing to wear". LOL. came home and had a little cruise in my cousin's new car, had a very interesting conversation about all his weird experiences with clubs and alcohol. we went to pick up my other cousin from his house and his neighbour got angry cause we parked infront of her garage and threatened us to move or she'd hose the car. ROFLMAO..what a terd.

last night was the first time i'd spoken [well msn'd] with susan in yonks! wow we sure had so much show and tell. it was like i'd lifted a whole heap off my shoulder, finally had someone to listen to my whinging and whining.

neways, here's something kinky to enjoy. click HERE ...last night we girls couldn't get enough of it.LOL

itunes; in my head - dj duco

status - online
chatting - tony.minh.jenifa.lianna
mood - content

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY VIET!!

i can't really be bothered blogging but im actually forcing myself to since i've promised to keep this updated. it's nearly 2 in the afternoon yet i've just woken up from my sleep. i'm such a lazyfuck, my days have been taken up by constantly sleeping in and netting. seems to me i've developed into a nocturnal...

even though i've had one heck of a sleep, i still feel tired to the shithouse. yesterday was spent karoaking and bumming in the city. kathy came over at 9ish then we both bussed it to city with lianna. our stomaches were crying out for food so we decided to have dinner at mommas's then finally met up with yun, matt, jasmine, jonno, vera and giselle at george st maccas. we all dreaded walking a far distance so we made our way to greenbox and unfortunltly there wasn't much people as we'd thought seeing as certain people dogged it. got in and sat around 'miming' to the songs. ROFLMAO . everyone was too shy or scared to sing with the microphone but no-one was to blame since there was no alcohol in our system! me and kathy left at 12ish to meet up with the girls coming back from xXxplosive and were glad to say that we didn't go! LOL. said hi to quoc and others then when everyone left, taxied it home around 1.30ish but got in the house at 2 because i had no keys and stupid doorbell didn't work! *cries*



At the moment the weather looks a tad bit gloomy but i believe this calls for a movie night! i'm still pondering on whether i should go out tonight because i've just realised it's friday the 13th, so be careful everone! i guess i'll just have to make sure i don't open umbrellas in the house or walk under ladders and definelty avoid black cats. xD

i don't find myself contemplatimg about much, but i've recently started thinking about all the 'waht ifs' . i sometimes find myself daydreaming and questioning myself on what the future would be like if i decided to take this path instead of that. would i be a different person today? there are many times when my mind wanders off and i start to have a strong urge to want something bigger and better. but now i've come to realise that i should stop been so pessimistic and be settled on whether i'm happy with what i have now and where i'm at. maybe if i stopped been so content and asking for more, i'd start seeing the real view of me.

neways two more weeks till school resumes, damn does time fly fast or what! for the next 14 days i'm going to make sure i party hard before i hit the books agains...go HARD or go HOME!

hmm..talk about been camera shy! shish...LOL

itunes; love comes - hixxy & re-con

status - online
chatting - michelle.yun
mood - bored

HAPPY 17TH HUONGY! x0x0

The number one thing i despise created by God is cockaroaches.

why? let's just say the sight of them is plain sickening, plus their hairy legs and long antennas make them so disgusting! i was forced to sleep in my sister's room last night because i found a humungus one crawling on my bed...ew ew ewww!

neways today consisted of doing absolute jackshiet. my sleeping pattern is so totally fucked up, slept late last night at 4am and woke up this afternoon at approximiately 2pm. seeing as half the day was gone, i decided to stay home on my couch nibbling on nutri grain and watching countless movies.

submission was held last night but no-one was up for it so we all decided to have a movie night at indo tom's. got picked up and driven by tuan to woolworths and kindly bought some munchies for everyone. when me and minh arrived it occurred to me that and sussan and i were the only girls in the house. LOL. had an very interesting night though where certain people got pretty whacked * ahem ahem yun* ROFL! hien and david came by then after a while me matt, and indo tom had an empty stomach so we trekked it all the way to the yeeros store and bought some food, although me and matt were extremely unsatisfied with our chicken yeeros which was totally dry and flavourless. visited quoc for a bit then walked it back which was quite a 'j-j-j-journey' AHAHAHA. watched the boys play few rounds of cards till trung and esh tom left so we all gathered in the living room and watched the rest of the pacifier. slowly eevryone started to leave so i taxied it home at around 2ish.



goddamit everyone was so camera shy so i couldn't get ONE decent picture! oh wells..don't worry there's always a next time! xD

tomorrow is xXxplosive yet i highly doubt i will go since it's predicted to be raining? i'm not really fond of cruises neway and don'twish to throw that 30$ down the drain but in the other hand i'm in the need of some fishing. and i'm not talking about any old ordinary fishing...AHAHAHA ...

itunes; the lonliness - babyface

status - online
chatting - minh.tony.john.tina
mood - satisfied

I feel so happy because i've finally found something to do which will hopefully occupy my time...

fill up my jar with paper what-ever-there-called stars xD

yes i know i'm very old school but who gives a jibberish! even though im an absolute failure at origami, i'm going to make sure i'm successful this time and actually finish this deed. LOL

surprisingly today went by really fast. woke up early, went to work till 3 and unfortunaley missed by bus by 2 minutes! i was a tad pissed off at myself for not walking faster but in the end i believe it was fate! it gave me the chance to send myself on another spree around market city. i've realised that shopping independenly isn't so bad, so to all you nigel-phobias out there, try it out for yourself! even though i did dread bumping into someone and been considered a nigel myself, i overcame the fear . ROFL

neways...who says money can't buy you happiness ey?

damn i've been such a good girl to the economy. splurged 120$ on my now new favourite pair of HOT SIZZLING DAZZLING GORGEOUS HUMPABLE DELICIOUS pink stilletoe points. purchasde other random items as well then quickly bolted to the bus-stop. came home with a satisfactory smile and it still hasn't left my face. xD...shopping is such good therapy!

hmmm the other day my cousin came over and commented that i looked STONED? well thank-you very much, i did not really appreciate it! you know how on some days you just cannot be fucked putting effort into your apearance? well just imagine a fag like me with totally messed up hair, daggy clothes and daunting eyebags from the night before. *hmpf*.. what can i say? fugly doesn't even come close! THANKFULLY no-one saw me looking like that, and hopefully never will.

damn i miss susan. come home to me baby! i need you and love you!! actually i don't love you, i love my heels..hor hor hor..i will never betray my beloved beauties ... JOKES! =P

itunes; bang 9 - re-con

status - offline

chatting - currently no-one

mood - read below

BOREDOM

just looking at that darn word makes me feel so dull and lifeless!
life for me right now consists of absofuckly nothing. talk about been stuck in a black and white world, i no longer feel happy or surreal. i want to do something new; i need somthing to spontaneously occurr and excite me again, something that would at least get my heart racing or lift me off the edge of my seat - anything will do! bloody oath...

as i sit here listening to my softcock playlist, it dwardles on me how many of my close friends have been so caught up in the four letter word! it many cases it has caused all of us so much pain and suffering yet has signified happiness and provided people with such a fond heart.
my mum once told me that it's rare to find true l.o.v.e at this stage but really....is it that difficult? i actaully agree, i mean we still have the whole world to see and pretty young to be 100 percent committed. but then again it's pretty ironic coming from me considering i thought i'd experienced it before ...wait thought? i mean i did.

it was just yesterday when we last met. not surprising, considering we somehow come across eachother practically everyday. im so indecisive, i don't know how i want to interpret these feelings anymore.
i like you...but then again, i don't like you? i want you...but then again, i don't need you?
i can't see us ever been together...but then again, the thought of you with someone else is unbearable. how do all these work out? what in the hell am i supposed to feel towards you then? *sighs* i don't want to further contemplate on this because then it would'nt be my own personal problem..

on another note, i was just a tad brief with my last entry but no worries, i'm back to blogging now!
2006 started off with a mighty heck of a BANG and a KABOOM mixed with a EEEKKK!
started off the day with an invite to tina's bbq but really only ended up hiding in the premises of her room watching movies and having chit chats with the girls and matt. after met up with others at city and viewed the fireworks which looked quite similiar to any other year..although i must add i was intrigued with the love-hearted fireworks! hor hor hor...



i know, those pictures look quite unspectacular but i was too busy running around screaming and hugging everyone...LOL
as planned, we all headed off to esh tom's after the fireworks and had the most memorable night i suppose. talk about those bitchfests! i never knew boys had so much to say! ROFLMAO
but then i'll remember all those meaningful and deep conversations we had and i guess it hit all of us that we are so priviledged to have such a close bond with eachother. we all stayed up talking and talking and no-one slept that night..or should i say no-one slept at all!

arrived home at 11 in the morning with a not much needed welcoming from my relatives. i was then forced to go on a family outing at my family friend's beach house and holy moly it was freaking 40 something degrees! the car trip was horrible and i felt like i was going to dehydrate. it was way too hot to have fun and games so i practically spent the whole day enclosed in the mansion sitting under the air conditioner. oh yer the house was bloody massive! it was three storeys and located right on the beach..they even owned their own boat, canoe, yacht...you name it!
the next day i had to attend another family dinner and it was nice to see all my little distant cousins and relatives whom i hadn't talked to in yonkasville!

and for the last four days? i have been sleeping, eating and lazing around! these holidays have been killing me...i should be spening it more productively before i hit the books agains but then there's nothing to do? i'm so going to regret this later on ..

oh dear me 4 more weeks will susan returns! where are you right now? i think you should in london? or are you on the way to vietnam already? well wherever you are im thinking of you! . miss you heaps darls! when i'm feelin down, i have no-one to call up anymore! when i'm home alone and hungry, your not there to call out anymore! when i want to sleep and nap in another house, your not here to provide me that anymore! LOL. i have so much on my mind which i need to empty out but i have to wait till you get your ass back on kangaroo-land!

anyways enough from me, i think i'm going to go sit my ass on my couch and watch some television. parents going to a wedding tonight meaning i got the whole house to myself...o0oolala.

[edit] apologies out for not been able to make it to both gordan and lil jay's birthday bash. sorry i just wasn't up for any partying and my mood atm doesn't make it any better, but i'm certain you's are having fun! hmmm...i need serious help. i'm so bored, me and tom agree we should invest in buying a poker set to kill our boredom! *sighz* [/edit]

itunes; music is my life - dj dean

status - online
chatting - tony
mood -

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!

&

HAPPY 16TH MINH!!

(for yesterday)

had an interesting start to the year, something i'd rather forget actually..but in the end i spent the end of 2005 and beginning of 2006 with all of my beloveds...so what more could i wish for?