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status - online
chatting - melynda
mood - hmmm..

i know i've got piles of homework to accomplish, but stuff it. writing is my release, whether or not i'm in the mood, its something i can always depend on, to cherish. well here goes my first hypocritical entry..

"i hate love"

strong statement i've just imposed, not saying i agree with it but unfortunatly there are many people out there who would most likely raise their hands, finding themselves constantly caught in the crushing tides of a fast moving current. since when did it become such a necessicity to fall in love? it's been planted so deep into our ethics as the only means to a wholesome life. i guess its something that never ceases to astound me.

the stories i hear, the very little experinces i've encountered have left me to conclude that relationships begin nonetheless the same - you get to know someone, anticipation builds, life starts becoming all exciting and fun, you fall for eachother and yadi yadi ya. it's always the endings that vary - relationships over, the book slowly closes and you find yourself starting over and over again...hmm if love was a book, i rekon i wouldn't even pass the first chapter, let alone the first page. LOL

this might sound pretty contradicting coming from me but i've defeintly learnt a valuable lesson today.

you can like someone, but sometimes it's never enough to keep a relationship going.

if there isn't any fuel in the relationship to keep it running, it's pointless. the relationship becomes scarce and no longer runs on its own - your pushing it both physically and emotionally.

nothing lasts forever, everything fades with time. more so looks not personality, but eventually both start to deteriate. in the end, were all ultimately seeking for satisfaction. i am not implying anything in particular but staisfaction comes in all shapes and sizes, it is defined differently varying with the person.

there's only so much one can do with a single opinion - i don't hate love, i live for love. my final concept is that maybe i'm the one with the problem, i'm all controversy that's all. LMAO. from each relationship, very few reach a peak of wisdom and maturity. no matter how adult we think we are [ like me. LOL] , there will always be obstacles, heartbreaks, betrayals that lay ahead of us..but then again its through these risks that we grow and develop...and im prepared to do so.

okay my tendency to constanly bring this topic up proberly has brought an annoyance to readers but tough luck! LOL. neways enough of that bluff and on with the life of janie! bahaha..well today's lessons were alright i suppose, E.T chasing melynda today at sport? ROFLMAO you poor girl! you got germs now. weekends were quite eventful, saturday celebrating tina's birthday at phoenix. sunday was spent wisely at state library studying with chris and holy moly had my first ever expericience riding on a motorbike! BAHAAHA, issent that so darn exciting. xD

neways i better stop right now before i start blabbering on about something more pointless. LOL. oh yer before i go..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TINA!!

and btw..our evil trio [ me, melynda and susan] have finally combined and formed a new born baby! www.team.newgen.blogspot.com

but dun worry i'm not going to abandon this blog. xD