status - away
chatting - no-wun
mood-

itunes; i love you more eevryday - ginuwine

status - online
chatting - melynda susan samson trung aaron
mood - emotionless i guess?

when was the last time you saved up for an item of your dreams and not feel as satisfied as you originally anticipated? hmm today i splurged my all on this lee top from urban store. kind of reconsidering whether i should have it purchased it in the first place...

but OH WELLS! beauty is a curse on this world that stops us from scratching the surface right?

it is evident that i've built up an appetite for material things, accepting them as substitutes for areas of emptiness in my life. i once told myself to 'devote yourself to something that gives you purpose and meaning'. i think these days it has become more like 'devote yourself to one or many things, temporarily or permanently.' any ways i've ascertained something that i tragically relate to.

itunes; rush - dhhd

status - away
chatting - susan.
mood- fried

i can't wait till the commencement of the holidays.
oh the joy of walking into maths class this morning feeling totally unprepared and stupid.
i can't wait till the commencement of the holidays.
late night pleas for help with questions kept me awake till 2am last night.
i can't fucking wait till the commencement of holidays..
okay so i survived the test, don't know if i'm going to pass but i merely SURVIVED.

hmm it's peculiar how sometimes the feeling of putting others in front can allow you to escape from your troublesome paradise. by making someone you care so much happy, it has a domino effect on yourself.. and you suddenly have a feel good factor. but then when you wave good bye them at the door, it seems as though you're back to point A, only to have had a few good hours' of company and leaving with a sufficient difference in their lives.

in meeting him, i learned what has to be the most important lesson i will ever learn in my entire existence. i used to think love was the definition of a feeling; the most important feeling ever felt by the most fortunate human beings. No. love is an empty thing in everyone's life; a word with no definition that stays in your soul, your heart, until someone comes along and fills it up. this person has arrived in my life and filled the definition more thoroughly than I could ever have imagined, causing this word to burst and spread through my entire body. i love this person. it just sucks that he exists only in my overly imaginative mind.

simply your girl next door...actually not really, YOU WISHED !

itunes; beep - pussycat dolls

status - away
chatting - no-one
mood - absofuckly lazy

everyone say hello to ADSL baby! *cheers* do you know what that means boys and girls?

FAST PORN AT A RAPID RATE!

nah only jokings! i mean c'mon..meh... porn? never! =)

nothing much has reached the exciting heights of blogging about. overall nothing in life is quite exciting at the moment. don't get me wrong, i'm happy and all but days seem to be spinning round and round in a repitive cycle, with only the occasional special moments here and there. nothing has taken me by surprise or hit an unexpected turn. should that be a good thing...?

this world works in strange ways i must say. karma never hits those people who truly deserve it. sounds cruel i know, but they really need a kick up the ass to realise what life is really about - most certainly doesn't revolve around them.

anyways last friday's math test was somewhat a total eeeekk! didn't turn out bad as i would have expected although i'm absoultly certain many marks have been lost, aiming for at least 80% so fingers crossed! at night ended up pigging out at momma's kitchen in the city with my beloved susan and melynda.

weekends was meant to be dedicated to some more maths cramming but my laziness conquered me once again. i sure have a really bad habit of procastinating, some one please HELP ME!!

[edit] OMG i am going fcuking insane! stupid trigonometry, stupid absolute values, stupid INEQUALITIES, ARGGGHHHH! i need therapy...i don't wanna fail this *cries* [/edit]

itunes; not e-nuff (rough mix) - duro & the prophet

status - online
chatting - trung. aaron . minh
mood - sleepy

i must stop PROCASTINATING!

2unit maths exam is this friday and i am totally stressing my nuts off. everything i've learnt over the past few weeks seems like a complete blur to me...i repeat no more PROCASTINATING and start studying! even worse next week is the 3unit test..*gulps*

did i mention that wentworth miller is so goddamn gorgeous? i finally got hold of the series of prison break thanks to mrs.caroline and mr.khang and holy moly its so addictive; watched from 6 till 10 today.. whoops four hours of studying down the drain! oh wells, don't underestimate the importance of a little rest and recreation, plus my eyes couldn't stop perving at the screen anyways..he looks so sexy even when his angry. LOL.

weekends was spent quite unproductively, sitting at home making candy for the sake of killing time. was MEANT to have an outing with a certain someone but...eh? only joking mr, we see eachother too much anyway. was at marrickville park on saturday night with the usuals for a while and did went up to pretty whacked and funny mischief. BAHAHAHA.

anyways issent it peculiar to think that we're becoming a society where all you need in life is good looks to achieve. if you've got it, congraluations! you've just won my lucky draw,first prize - a one way ticket to success and a lifetime supply of men/women at your feet. LOL! and what do i get out of it? hmmm guess i'll just be discouraged for the rest of my life. BAHAHA.

Our problem is that we make the mistake of comparing ourselves with other people. You are not inferior or superior to any human being.You do not determine your success by comparing yourself to others, rather you determine your success by comparing your accomplishments to your capabilities. You are 'number one' when you do the best you can with what you have. everyday. Z.Siglar

is this how our soceity functions today? those who are capable to strive through things, unafraid and unaffected by what others think should be admired! all i have left to say is...

be yourself ; no body is better qualified

itunes; bailando - yaga y mackie ranks ft nina sky

status - online
chatting - trung
mood - tired

okay.

ever girl is entitled to her pissed of moments. yersterday was unfortunatly my turn.

i apologise for my very foul language last night so viewer discretion is totally advised! oh yuk i have never in my whole entire blogging life used so many fu*ks in one entry...hmmm 15 in total to be exact. i hate swearing and shall stop doing so, it makes me feel so unfeminine. LOL

anyways i've done too much thinking, not enough time to write about them...but in short, it's funny how some things never change. it's funny how people change. it's funny how things in life work out. life, overall, is funny. Both ha-ha funny and that peculiar sort of funny.

call me naive, but i wonder how many people have become so unmotivated, suicidal, meaningless, insignificant and empty without a boyfriend. are they looking for happiness in all the wrong places?

i myself have come to a conclusion that i am male-hating (at present) and repelling against all types of penis species. i've also come to realise the fact that i have no more idea what feeling it is to be in like with someone. not that i can't feel it anymore, more whatsoever of what it is to be with someone else and missing the fact that i'm missed back.

"you know him very well, you've been through a lot with him. but he isn't always there for you anymore. from time to time he makes you happy, you sometimes forget about him, in other words, you're able to turn your feelings on and off. you both admit and feel an attachment to eachother but deep down you both don't know if it'll ever work out again and fear of the end narration... " -

for he who must not be named. righteo! best mood one minute and the next i’m all not happy? i need strawberry green tea.

@$@%@^%#@^

FCUK U FUCKING BITCH !!

WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE HUH? ACTING LIKE YOUR ALL INNOCENT AROUND YOUR FRIENDS BUT THE MINUTE U FUCKING COME HOME YOU TURN INTO THIS FCKING SELFISH BITCH. YOU KNOW WHAT FUKING GROW UP AND START RESPECTING PEOPLE IN YOUR FAMILY. FOR FUKSAKES ALL U THINK ABOUT IS YOURSLF, PUHHHLEASEE U THINK YOUR THE VICTIM OF EVERYTHING WHEN REALLY YOUR THE ONE THATS PUSHING IT CONSTANTLY.

don't think that you haven't 'changed'. take a a fucking good look in the mirror and think back to the last time u've even done anything for anyone but yur fucking self. you neevr fucking listen to a fucking word i say, nor do you even give a shit THAT I ACTUALLY CARE, all you do is make our parents run after you day after day and u can't seem to get it thru your thickhead that DEY CARE ABOUT YOU SHITHEAD. and what? can't i borrow your stuff without asking? FOR FUK SAKES DO I CHUCK A TANTRUM WHEN U COME INTO MY ROOM AND TAKE MY BELONGINS THEN DESTROY IT HUH? can't i use the computer without you braggin on and whining, DO I FUKING ACT ALL STUBBORN WHEN U WANT TO GO ONLINE HUH? when i tlel you to come home cause its late, IS THAT A CRIME TO FUKING WANT YOU TO COME HOME SAFELY HUH? that's what sisters are for, SO STRAIGHTEN UP YOUR ACT AND START FUKING ACTING LIKE ONE!

itunes; you are my phantasy - SY & Unknown

status - away
chatting - currenty no-wun
mood - bored

it's funny how the simplest, smallest & littlest details can suddenly bring you back a whole set of "certain" memories that once were nicely placed in a box and never meant to come out. instead out of the bloody blue, it just attacks and shoots right at cha like a jack-in-the-box?!

bored out of my wits i skimmed through my 'memory box' and came across old school letters, diaries, cards, and photos which screamed out "WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?'. i spent an whole hour reading three casimir diaries and actually discovered some pretty hilarious hidden messages i hadn't seen. i remember back then when we all use to swap diaries wherever possible and leave mischievious comments and letters. hmmm quoc and the boys pretty much trashed and destroyed every single page of mine, LOL!

anyways this is the first time i've blogged on a saturday night for ages. I'm in the mood to go out tonight, was tempted in visiting andy's birthday bash in the city but i'm feeling way too lazy for public transport. so here i am, stuck at home glued to this computer screen. if only....if only i had a boyfriend!

school has been treating me A to the OK. not surprisngly i am really enjoying school (minus the walking to and from school) , even though you girls may complain that i talk and laugh way too much, i take that as a compliment ok?! ROFL. mind you's i have been attending and staying awake in all classes...hmm amazing ain't it?

in three weeks an 'indo-chinese' youth camp is going to be held, and for only 15$ too! LMAO. our school is offering seven girls to go and howdy doo i am so packing my bags! melynda and susan are also gee'd up so it's going to be so hecticalectic! some of the activities include canoeing and rockclimbing, not to mention the whole camp's asian. HAHAHA. i just hope the place doesn't turn out trashy and fingers crossed there won't be another texas chainsaw massacre!

who says money can't buy you happiness? *droolz*
i want the new samsung z510, it pretty much resembles the motorola v3 but has better functions.

itunes; we belong together - mariah carey

status - online
chatting - susan khang
mood - tired

i've just spent an exhilierating two hours completing maths excercises. my poor eyes are so sore and fried, i think i've been looking at too many numbers *cries*.





hmmmm... i need easyway's pearl green tea

itunes; apocalypse (hardstyle mix) - zatox

status - online
chatting - melynda chris khang trung
mood - boiling hot!!

for someone who thinks alot, i didn't think i'd come to this.

it seems the anarchy of thoughts messing up my head have totally become accustomed to me. i feel like im stuck in some big fat hole, don't know where were at again. it's been happening too many times, i just can't take it anymore..

sometimes the best thing you can do in a situation is to let it happen i guess?

today i woke up disgustingly in a pile of blood. no, it wassent because of THAT, it was actually caused from the blood rushing out of my new pierced belly! who ever claimed that it was non-painful must be a total nutcase, it bloody hurts to even bend over and tie my shoelace atm*cries*. but nono i ain't complaining cause i got it for free free baby! my aunty came over and brought her handy dandy kit so my uncles and cousins ended up all going home with various piercings. my dad got two peircings on his ear claiming that one day it will eventually weigh them down and give him buddha's royal ears *rolls eyes* LMAO.

yesterday the family celebrated my brother jonathan's 4th birthday! awww i love him sooo sooo much! we hosted a little dinner get together and ended up having a couple of laughs catching up with cousins. it was so cute watching jonathan sing happy birthday to himself, it's these days that you start appreciating things.

'sometimes it's the simple things in life that we forget..'

celebrated michelle's and joew's birthday at pyrmont last saturday, hmmm bitchfestivities galore right girls? LOL. ended up staying there till 1ish witnessing people getting sauced, duck-taped to a tree, BAHAAH. anyways hoped you like our pressie michelle and hopefully it will come to use in yur later years, ROFL. oh yer btw..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MICHELLE & JOEW !!